Confession: I don’t really know how to use my camera. I’ve had it for three years and always kept the little dial fixed on the green square. Because there are numbers and math and logic involved in using manual settings, and my brain just doesn’t have enough space for all that.
And also I’ve been too scared of failure (because I’m type-A and we do this to ourselves).
Enter my friend Ann, who encouraged me to switch the dial to “M” and just try. On a recent beach trip, she actually grabbed my camera for me and put it in my hands. Then she explained metering and aperture and shutter speed and how they all come together to make a photograph. And it started to make sense.
So I clung tight to that little glimmer of understanding and fired away. Then I tried again in the driveway a few days later. Of course these shots are under- or over-exposed or blurry (and wtf white balance?) but I love them for the moments they represent and the little personalities that come shining through, even if mommy is using the wrong shutter speed.
And because I’m trying.
(And also because I’ll need some “before” pictures for when I get good at this, right?)
So here’s a start, straight out of my camera (just cropped a few).
Like they say on The Bachelorette, I’m excited about this journey.